highschool heartache.

Rest in Peace my dear friend

Jeff Gargiulo

you will be forever missed and remembered.

lady of the spells

there's hope on my breath
when you say you'll someday be able to make promises to me
and when you do, you'll break a few, as promised.

funny ho-ha lunch text-

Me- "I'm going to be in Conneticut this week."
Brandon- " Where you gonna be?"
Me- " New Fair Field."
Brandon- " O. I know where that is. Lunch date?"
Me- " If yer into it!"
Brandon- " Def what i'm into."
Me- "Ok - so your around this week?"
Brandon- " Yup. Gonna be in Danbury Wednesday."
Me- " Bahahaha - I was about to say "get out of town" but don't do that literally! "
Brandon- " hahahaha. "

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documents.

+ just some of my summer capturings.

madly mad.

Truly fucking amazing.

i knew you would say that.

but see, i've been out drinking with my baby.
and you've got that fantastic smile of yours
we know what we: mean
and so are you.
but this is what happens when you share ones secerts.
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+ just another girl, another planet.

Lykki Li x RICK ROSS

Lykke Li from Donnie Scantz on Vimeo.


She's the most cute.

Anticon.

Lyrically one of my favorite songs:


As I lay me down to fall asleep

With my demons dying and my pilot light weak
I curse the last six months I been hiding behind a mustache, yeah
And to those last ten years I been howling a paper moon: fuck you

This goes out to all my underdone, under-tongue, lung long frontmen
(This is what the ghost of someone's dad says)
And all us earth growths, some planted
And some pulled
(Shut up and put your money where your mouth is)

Shine a flashlight in a hat box and spin
An empty oyster shell and celebrate the hollows

This goes out to dirty dancing, cursing, backmasking,
backslidden pastor's kids
(From behind bars it's not so hard to see he's risen)
And all us earth growths, some planted
And some pulled

(But nobody finds God and then goes to prison)
In Berlin I saw two men fuck in a dark corner of a basketball court
Just the slight jingle of pocket change pulsing

In the tourist part I lost fifty Euros
To the guy with the walnut shells and the marbles
It really pissed me off, so oh
I thought I'd go back to get my money but all my homies warned me
Oh no, those gypsies probably got knives

This goes out to all my under brewed, double-duped, two times true fools
(Stuck faking a phone call or texting for company)
And all us earth grows, I'm planted
That's some pull
(Like a married uncle at a family function)

I got them shaky gums and a couple of loose tooths
Now tell me, what should I do, my god

The clock's always stuck telling 11:11, or 3:32

This goes out to all my underdone, other-tongued, lung long frontmen
(Even just Joanna Newsom’s left hand)
And all us earth growths, some planted
And some pulled
(I bet could beat the pants in bass off your best man)
This goes out to all my underdone, other-tongued, lung long frontmen
(This is what the ghost of someone's dad says)
And all us earth growths
Doing the croak like it ain't no joke


In a crowded room project a debonair aloof impermanence
Be shrouded loosely in an air of indeterminates
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Wednesday mornings bring inspiration!

I opened my curtains and saw series of photos in my mind...
Bare with me, there are sevrerl of the same shots with minor differences.
I love the contrasts in each photos, the livly effects, the warm fall colors
the window pannels, the greenery, the homemade stain glass my grandfather made for me.
One window shows the remains of summer while the other window moves into fall.
It was an effortless shoot - literally laying in my bed.
Not only does my bed face a certian direction but it awakes me to a great view!

a sample of my brain...

- My fingers are literally tired of the use of typing.

+ Why do dentist try talking to you when your mouth is being drilled in, sucked in?

- My kitchen/den area is spooky at night and the fact that my grandpa died in there is a big friggin factor so it causes me to have  a special OCD walk I do at night: I literally walk the outter part of the room and make sure i step on the rug by the front door because in my head i created a 'saftey zone' like you have in freeze tag.

- I hate when my feet dangle off my bed.

+ Why is putting sheets on the bed the most obnoxious thing in the world?! it's one of those twisted little nothings that make twitch.

+ Who pulls the lever to close the bus door when the driver has to get off?! Fucking right though?!!

- Crusty elbows will make me have an instant anxiety attack.

- I'm my most funniest when i'm forced to entertain myself while i'm driving alone. I literally find myselff shocking thyself! Hysterically laughing at myself..sometimes its too much fun being me.

 - I sleep with two pillows - my head goes between both like ham does on bread. Lord only knows why.

Hey Dad-

you would be so proud of  the you in me now.





+ Roria.

Pictures I took over the weekend!

. Mike Giant x New York City .

. Famous Last Words .

. My sisters stunning daughter, Anaysha .

. Birthday party .

. Best hair! .

. Happy birthday to my Leo's Mamabear, Jenna, Lisa and Jaime! .

Harbor Living.

The Earth is where we stand:


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an equal balance of healty-ness.

" i'm an asshole as much as i am nice "

- me.

CHEMISRTY(eriously) (chemyster)ioulsy

When i think that i'm over you

I'm overpowered

Your data my data
The chromosomes match
Exact as in matter
A matter of fact

These amaranth feelings
A cognitive state
Need the love object
To reciprocate

When i think that i'm over you
I'm overpowered
It's long overdue
I'm overpowered


When i think that i'm over you
I'm overpowered
It's long overdue
But i'm overpowered


As science struggles on
To try to explain
Oxy-toxins flowing
Ever into my brain

As science struggles on
To try to explain
Oxy-toxins flowing
Ever into my brain


A chemical reason
If reason's your game
A chemical needing
Is there in the brain

With preprogrammed meanings
Like a little more pep

Alien feelings
We have to accept

When i think that i'm over you
I'm overpowered
It's long overdue
I'm overpowered

When i think that i'm over you
I'm overpowered
It's long overdue
I'm overpowered

As science struggles on
To try to explain
Oxy-toxins flowing
Ever into my brain


As science struggles on
To try to explain
Oxy-toxins flowing
Ever into my brain


I'm overpowered




- amazing viedo and lyrics
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Hearing what I draw.

".Unzip my body Take my heart out Cause I need a beat to give this tune."

- a drawing i did way back. I still remember my thought process to this drawing i had when it was birthed.

I was listening to  Roisin Murphy's song called "Ramalama (bang bang)."

I took in the choice of insruments she used, her voice, the rythem, lyrics and tried how to figure what how i could draw the song. This drawing of her face was what I heard. 

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meet me in the powder room.

and you'll keep asking me questions
and i'll keep lying with my flower covered words
boy, you've got the clouded eyes -
you pour your love out of the cereal box.
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lastnight, you should have heard what the big dipper said to me.

On the nights of August 11th and 12th I laid in the grass of my backyard, with a set of binoculars, glasses and a compass watching Perseids! The Perseid meteor shower was known as the "Tears of St. Lawrence." The Perseid meteor shower is an annual meteor shower - Every year, the earth passes through the debris cloud left by the comet when the earth's atmosphere is bombarded by what is popularly known as "falling stars" Thus, is what we watch for! It is not uncommon to see at least 60 meteors per hour streaking through the moonlit sky! Although on August 12th, the sky was rather cloudy, I didn't get to see much. I did however, school joe in Mac and Cheese lessons with bacon and ketchup! He say's I was the most prepared to see the stars! That's because i'm the daughter of the kooked out science teacher! If my dad taught me anything, it's how to find the stars. I love everything about space. I'm a sponge for knowledge dealing with the Stars. I enjoy star gazing so much - to the point I had at least 6 people informed about the shower and to watch. Jay Cinematic claims "I'm so full of life, it's awesome!" Weee! I previously blogged about my dads teachings - I really appreciate learning about this kind of stuff and am thankful and I can still teach myself just from knowing certain things from my dad. On the night of the 12th I saw at least 2 shooting stars, packed it in ealry though. Keep your eyes to sky tonight, for you too shall see nature at it's best! And you're never too old to make a wish :o).

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the things we hide.

that intense nonsense we spewed, i miss it, i miss you in general
not the you that sits in my passenger seat while i drive with my eyes closed
but the you that shared a corner of my mind.
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Wait for the sun -

.linger on, pale blue eyes.

The kills cover of Velvet Undergroud.

Sometimes I feel so happy

Sometimes I feel so sad
Sometimes I feel so happy
But mostly you just make me mad
Baby you just make me mad
Linger on, your pale blue eyes
Linger on, your pale blue eyes

Thought of you as my mountain top
Thought of you as my peak
Thought of you as everything
I've had but couldn't keep
I've had but couldn't keep

If I could make the world as pure and strange as what I see
I'd put you in the mirror I put in front of me
I'd put in front of me

Skip a life completely, stuff it in a cup
She said money is like us in time
It lies but can't stand up
Down for you is up

It was good what we did yesterday
And I'd do it once again
The fact that you are married
Only proves that you're my best friend
But it's truly, truly a sin
Linger on, your pale blue eyes
Linger on, your pale blue eyes
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Summer fun.

. Some hangouts, Free Metric show in Prospect Park, Modest Mouse show, Parties .