brisk breaks.

the cold winter winds came creeping in
i couldn't sleep lastnight with the noun you gave me.
when i have nothing better to do, i remember-
you can be so mean when you say nothing at all.
+

lady of the spells

there's hope on my breath
when you say you'll someday be able to make promises to me
and when you do, you'll break a few, as promised.

i knew you would say that.

but see, i've been out drinking with my baby.
and you've got that fantastic smile of yours
we know what we: mean
and so are you.
but this is what happens when you share ones secerts.
.
.
.
+ just another girl, another planet.

. to wrap my mind around, i could not .

He past is a grotesque animal and in it's eyes you see


How completely wrong you can be

The sun is out it melts the snow that fell yesterday makes you wonder why it

bothered

I fell in love with the first cute girl that I met who could appreciate george

bataille

Standing at swedish festival discussing the "story of the eye"

It's so embarrassing to need someone like I do you

How can I explain I need you here and not here too

I'm flunking out I'm gone I'm just gone but at least I author my own disaster

Performance breakdown and I don't want to hear it

I'm just not available things could be different but they're not

The mousy girl screams violence violence she gets hysterical

Cause they're both so mean and it's my favorite scene

But the cruelty's so predictable it makes you sad on the stage

Though our love project has so much potential but it's like we weren't made for


this world

Though I wouldn't really want to meet someone who was

Do I have to scream in your face?

I've been dodging lamps and vegetables

Throw it all in my face I don't care

Let's just have some fun

Let's tear this shit apart

Let's tear the fucking house apart

Let's tear our fucking bodies apart but let's just have some fun

Somehow you've red rovered the gestapo circling my heart

And nothing can defeat you no death no ugly world

You've lived so brightly you've altered everything

I find myself searching for oldselves

While speeding forward through the plate glass of maturing cells

I've played the unraveler the parhelion

But even Apocalypse is fleeting

There's no death no ugly world

Sometimes I wonder if you're mythologizing me like I do you

We want our film to be beautiful not realistic

Perceive me in the radiance of terror dreams

And you can betray me but teach me something wonderful

Crown my head crowd my head with your lilting effects

Project your fears onto me

I need to view them

See there's nothing to them

I promise you there's nothing to them

I'm so touched by your goodness you make me feel so criminal

How do you keep it together? I'm all all unraveled

But you know no matter where we are

We're always touching by underground wires

I've explored you with the detachment of an analyst

But most nights we've raided the same kingdoms

And none of our secrets are physical now.

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this will forever raise the hair on my arms.
this will forever make me get lost within the lyrics.
this is my thought process & every line is better than the last.

. what i'm searching for .

What I'm searching for

to tell it straight, I'm trying to build a wall
Walking by myself
down avenues that reek of time to kill
If you see me keep going
be a pass by waver

Build me up, bring me down
just leave me out you name dropper
Stop trying to catch my eye
I see you good you forced faker
Just make it easy
You're my enemy you fast talker

I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up
If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe

What am I here for
I left my home to disappear is all
I'm here for myself
Not to know you
I don't need no one else

Fit in so good the hope is that you cannot see me later
You don't know me
I am an introvert an excavator
I'm duckin' out for now
a face in dodgy elevators
Creep up and suddenly
I found myself
an innovator

Change, change, change,
I want to get up out of my skin
tell you what
if I can shake it
I'm 'a make this
something worth dreaming of

+


most accurate for me right now.

you+

you weren't any of the things I was expecting....
different tounges, same taste
but oh my god would i kill an army
just to feel your sarcastic kiss right now
dont go any deerper.
too late, i've come to drown.
it's the bastard in me.
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anti fancy title.

a wish for every lash and limb,
we lived our lives in black.
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exactly what it is.

i fed the cold winters of decemeber with rosaries and lust
i have no connection to this part of my life anymore
two bodies that held such odd forms
missing moments,losing teeth, forgetting sleep
darling 09 you've fucked me up.

xx.

midnight sun.

i'm calling my side of the bed; but i'm sleeping alone.
the wanting comes in waves.
your love is like the most beautiful day to fall asleep and drift into a warm purgatory like state.
I lost your taste to chemicals.
I'd take twice the amount as you, if you could only stop sweating.
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differently the same.

Don't mistake my quietness for shyness; the quality of your personality is the volume control to mine.
your demon like character; disguised as good, has portrayed the image of not having put enough thought into your costume. And i hope you stand seething with guilt. The silence you project, only justifies this act of cowardice. The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness, the one thing that I cannot give. With no last kiss & no regrets; So say no more, your empty words are differntly the same. you don't deserve good bye.