Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

I have a terrible habit of starting things and never ever finishing them.
I start and then i easily think of something else and begin that.
i have over 4 sketch books that showcase this habit, pages of unfinished arts,
thoughts, writings. It's become an expensive habit as well too, if i do add.
I think it's because I:
a.) Have the worst ADD
b.) Get bored often
c.) My brain is always thinking of something else to think of. (?!)
4.) im an Aries, we are restless and always trying to do something!
However, I am working on it.
* i just wrote 4 instead of d....see what the fuck I mean.*
i'm always there but never really fully there with ANYTHING i do.
its terribly awesome.

King without a crown.

You're all that I have and you're all that I need

Each and every day I pray to get to know your peace
I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet
Won't be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin' up all through till twilight
Said thank you to my God, now I finally got it right
And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all a' my soul, and all a' my might

What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now, time we start revealing
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now

Me no want no Sinsemilla, that would only bring me down

Burn away my brain, no way, my brain is too compound
Elevated my soul, you're a flying my sound
Like the sun of a sun ray burning up through a cloud
Say, Torah food for my brain, let it rain till I drown
Thunder, let the blessings come down
Say, Torah food for my brain, let it rain till I drown


Strippin’ away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you're trying to stay high, bound to stay low
You want God but you can't deflate your ego

If you're already there then there's nowhere to go
If you're cup's already full then its bound to overflow
If you're drowning in the water's and you can't stay afloat

Ask Hashem for mercy, and he'll throw you a rope
You're looking for help from God you say he couldn't be found
Searching up to the sky and looking beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
You keep fallin' down
You really want to like but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and then you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze


What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now, time we start revealing
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a whole in the ceiling
I give myself to you from the essence of my being and I
Sing to my god, songs of love and healing
I want Moshiach now



See I lift up my eyes where my help come from
And I seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed
Look to the sky where my help come from
Seen it circling around from the mountain
Thunder!
You feel it in your chest
You keep my mind at ease and my soul at rest
You're not vexed



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black medic.

I, only knew of the known secret.
the dirt under my fingernails would have given me in.
I have questions that I'm afraid your tongue can't answer.
he exhaled slow-
the second hand air, danced across the skin of my cheek.
i have your eyes and your smile,
but i don't have your back.
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Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

I know it's three photos, but these are a few of my favorite pictures of 3 summers ago.

"SALSA SALSA, YOU IN?!"

Today was one of my days off, so I spent my day out in Port Jeff.
I'm really having a hard time giving into the colder days, I desperately don't want the winter to come.
I've been packing all my last minute 'warm weather activites' in like a mother.
Chandra lives out in the Port Jeff area and has been begging for some adventures and to take me
under the "Salsa Salsa wing." And you don't know?! Salsa Salsa is what i can officially say a bomb ass Mexican food joint! Almost everyday Chandra get's her fix, sometimes even two times a day and then comes to work and boasts about just how good. "Petrone, theres a WALL OF GUAC in the burrito!" Those were the defining moments that made me know, I need to try it. Over the summer Jaime had just recently moved me onto "Ay Caramba" Mexican food down in Long Beach - that was a banging jump off and out beat my Moe's Mexican Grill fix...by the way i'm a chunkina if you haven't caught on by the first 5 sentences of this post. So with Moe's beat, and Ay Caramba in the lead with best burrito, it was now time to check out Salsa Salsa. Chandra has ALWAYS done well by me with her tastes in food, and she's a vegetarian and still knows how to hook her porker friend up! So, I made the call, she without a doubt was down for the cause and with a freshly rolled joint we giggled our once empty tummies down for good eats! On another level of, "fucking supreme" was what I replied after sinking my teeth in...Chandra in her glory. The lady behind the counter requested I try the 'homemade sauce' and fuck, you got me....spices and guacamole and i am there! So amazing. So we ate, sat in the window, people watched and rolled out the door. Stuffed to the max, we walked it off and strolled the town of Port Jeff. I got myself these super fun earrings. It was a good day. :)

. new fun new fun! .

today's doors song of choice and reason:

I will never be untrue

Do anything you would want me to
Never stay out drinking
no later than two
(two thirty...)
I will never treat you mean
and I won't cause no kind of scene
Tell you all the people
all the places I have been
I will always treat you kind
try to give you peace of mind
Only you tell me that you love me
one more time
Now darling
please don't be sad
Don't run off like that
when you get mad
Cause if you do
you gonna lose
the best friend
that you ever had
That's no lie...
I will never be untrue
Do everything you want me to do
Bring all my loving all my money
bring it all home to you
I never be untrue

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measure twice, cut once.

how do you measure worth?
i'm finding it extremely hard to do such.
value, trust, and honesty is what i'm weighing
you all come with so much baggage
that i can't decipher who will dance or hang it up.


:(
+ i've been stuck in my head this whole month.
i need the 20th to come already. family and islands.

place thoughts?

mr. and mrs. big head. (rml)

i will not reduce my stance to satisfy your ego's hunger.

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