Me time:

taking the time off from:

. poor food
. facebook
. useage of my cell phone
. going out
. the useage of my car
. spending money
. humans
. cleared my cell phone out of people i dont share a life with anymore



starting up:

. body detox
. continue reading
. coconut water again
. cottage Cheese
. morning runs
. set bedside mode
. preparing for warm weather

+ i haven't checked myself in a while, the time is now.

if you made it thus far, use your resources to find me. +

eyesclosed xx.

And she doesn't know; he doesn't know-
but there are those that do.
and in between the two:
are the rings they drew.
drawn together.
torn together.
the rings: beneath the eyes that don't see
but show the deapth their in.
and in your head it's never what it seems;
and in your head you make a scene.
SETTLE DOWN THAT PRETTY LITTLE HEAD OF YOURS.
we all become sinners at night.

(MMM)Morrison-

I often look up/read Jim Morrison's words/lyrics because i have so many rare/different versions of songs. I wanted to look up a versions of "Back Door Man" off The Complete Matrix Club Tapes. While googling, I stumbled on this article of someone who googled "What is a back door man?"  I then read through the entire article, including the comments. Some of it made me laugh. One line stood out to me, "However, if there's anything I've learned with age, it is to not always trust in the obvious." Cheers! +

http://www.bernzilla.com/item.php?id=53

The article basically displays three ways that others are led to believing what the blues term of "Back Door Man" really means/stands for:

1. Referring to a man having an affair with a married woman, and presumably comes and goes through the back door of her house.

2. On a literal stance: Having Anal Sex. "When Morrison and Plant were around, anal sex was even more taboo than it is today, and society was even more likely to blow its top (no pun intended) when someone mentioned anal sex."

3. 'Back door' is in the way of SNEAKING into concerts, usually the "back door man" helps to get another in. "Sneaking" and "Back door" on two different meanings, joining as one.

As a Major doors fan there’s just too many references throughout several songs that led us to believe it only means one thing. The Affair stance. My case in point brings me to the song "The Spy." The version of this song Live At The Boston Arena, Morrison adds on how his woman’s been bad, he's seen her with another man." Even without that clip, the song alone talks about "know knowing deepest secret fears, I'm a spy, I can see, what you do, and I know." If you know Morrison, you know his ways. Wild.

That's one way I believe it's just a reference to having an affair, sneaking out the back, and being Morrison.  The second reasoning is mentioned in the article. In the song "Back Door Man", when Morrison sings out:  "You men eat your dinner. Eat your pork and beans. I eat more chicken any man ever seen", it shows that the wife is feeding him better than her own husband. - As mentioned. "I'm a back door man, The men don't know, But the little girl understand" Sure, I don't doubt it was meaning and being the anal aspect as well, being it was the 60's and it was Jim. But after all, Jim Morrison is all for words!



And if you really ask me- thinking of scandalous Morrison is way more exciting as the what may first seem obvious.+ ::wink::

at night we give ourselves to the moon

your stranger like touch;
one whiskey like glow that could out shine the moon-
at high noon it will no longer matter.
those ungodly things-
mark my body as a home.
i keep you around my finger;
like a rubber band to a thought.

+

planned plans.

“One day you’re out here- broke… trying to put together enough for a sandwich. The next day you really got it happenin’– sittin’ in a studio you bought – and in the village, no less. Don’t ask me how it all happens, man. I guess you just keep going; you gotta groove through all the darkness…”

-Jimi Hendrix

three strikes and you're....

out of line

out of sight

out of mind


+

mr. and mrs. big head. (rml)

i will not reduce my stance to satisfy your ego's hunger.

+

2 lumps of sugar.

fits of forgiveness for every bitch and bastard-
your all common denominators.
awake with the same damn smile
fix yourself,
it's tiring and rude.
your ways, we don't care about the death or the triumph.
my name is victoria and i've forgotten logic and how to tell time.

wild, is in the winter winds.

we used to wait for it.
the magnetic moon, never seemed so dull.
we were raised by wolves,
and we are still wild.
you go so far.
+

love and

YOU

IN

EYE

TEA

WHY



don't quote me.

" I'm not questioning you, because I don't expect any answers from you. "

+ Bob Dylan

Miami 1969-

Drunken, so far gone, bearded Jim at his best. Live in Miami is hands down, sure shot, my OF ALL TIME favorite "Five to One" versions. This is the infamous Miami concert where it is said the Lizard King exposed his cock! Morrison grew tired of people not listening to his poetic words and being viewed as a "sex goddess" or a drunken musician. Morrison wanted to be known as the poet he is. You can truly hear just how fucked up he really was and how the background music is so distorted.  And the rage in his voice and rath of what he really is trying to say.

"You're all a bunch of fuckin' idiots...Lettin' people tell you what you're gonna do! Lettin' people push you around! How long do you think it's gonna last?! How long are you gonna let it go on?! How long are you gonna let them push you around?! How long?! Maybe you like it! Maybe you like being pushed around! Maybe you LOVE IT! Maybe you like getting your face stuck in this shit! C'mon! Maybe you love getting pushed around! YOU LOVE IT DONT YA, YOU LOVE IT. You're all a bunch of slaves! Letting everybody push you around! - What around gonna do about it?! What are you gonna do about it?! What are you gonna do about it?! What are you gonna do about it?!What are you gonna do about itttttttt?! What are you gonna do about itttttttt?!  What are you gonna do?! What are you gonna do?! What are you gonna do?!!!!!"

Give it a listen, you'll be amazed and promised a laugh at how genius he is! Truly a fuckin' movement!



6:45 update after already being posted: My mom got mad when i opened our sliders to our backyard
and recitiedscreaming all of "YOU'RE ALL A BUNCH OF FUCKIN' SLAVES" and so on...she got mad.

Honors.

Two powerful figures, One classic!

JM

"But I tell you this man, I tell you this, I don't know whats gonna happen man, but I wanna have my kicks before the whole shit house goes up in flames!" - James Douglas Morrison.

Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand.

Just when I was getting lost in unwelcome thoughts in my head-
Joe and Lisa shaked me up.
For joe, it was an act of his wise words, pick me up's and a critical stance!
With Lisa, she sent me a piece of home. She sent me 'Can't you see - Marshall Tucker Band.'
True classic annnnnnd they are in Connecticut for Taste of Danbury. I'm hoping to get out there.
Two of my best.<3

(h)ideas.

i've realized that each time i do a "Google" search, it never is what it says in the sugessted drop down box.
What I search, usually never has the suggested words it thinks you mean or have done a pervious search for, or even by the most popular search upon requests. Kinda made me laugh, makes me wonder what it is the rest of the world searches for.

+ also, left over cold sweet potatoes with crispy marshmellows on top makes for the ultimate best munchies meal, mom you rule so hard.

Spoken Wor(L)ds.

We reproduce catastrophe because we ourselves are traumatized – both as a species and individually, beginning at birth. Because we are wounded, we have put up psychic defences against reality and have become so cut off from direct participation in the multidimensional wilderness in which we are embedded that all we can do is to navigate our way cautiously through a humanly designed day-to-day substitute world of symbols - a world of dollars, minutes, numbers, images and words that are constantly being manipulated to wring the most possible profit from every conceivable circumstance. The body and spirit both rebel.


— David Watson (The Pathology Of Civilization)
 
 
+

Joe Lee says-

" You are. One of the most interesting and complex people I know. true story "







+ he's got it.

Favorite Quotes:

We are the notorious scapegoats, for living as others live only in their dreams at night

-Anais Nin, A Spy in the House of Love

You got my heart you got my soul you got the silver you got the gold,
a flash of love just made me blind, I don't care no that's the big surprise

-You Got the Silver, The Rolling Stones

A stranger has come to share my room in the house not right in the head, a girl mad as birds.

-Dylan Thomas

I see myself as an intelligent, sensitive human with the soul of a clown
which forces me to blow it at the most important moments.
- Jim Morrison

She kissed as if she alone could forge the signature of the sun
- Saul Williams


Time has told me you're a rare rare find, a troubled cure for a troubled mind

- Nick Drake, Time Has Told Me

funny (w)hoo-haa's!

+ How young can you die from old age?
+ I was looking in my fridge, picked something out that said "Expiration date 2012" - well sure!
+ "Déjà vu, all over again"
+ "Broker than I thought I was."


The first two are my own. Equally all made me step back a second and laugh. Oh the little things.