being my friend involves: brain tweakers

Randomly at 12:00 at night I texted a random selection of people asking them to "Name a song right now..." Some took it literal and gave me current hits on the radio, while others gave me funny, bizzarre, random, wildest songs. Some gave reasons why the chose it. Some cheated and gave more than one. It made me laugh to see what everyone chooses and who chose what. It also made me laugh to see how each person took that question. I got to learn a lot about certian people and see where their heads are at. I know some real fucks! :) And Some are even gonna make it to the ipod!

Brien McCarthy said - Put it down on me - 50
Jaime C - Baby got back - Sir Mix A lot
Joe Lee - All you need is love - the beatles
Cassel - Wild Thing - Jimi Hendrix
Grace - Pretty girl rock - Kery Hilson
Sycko- Pretty girl rock - Kery Hilson
Tj- i need a dollar - aloe blacc
Jon Clue- Transylvanian Hunger
Carolyn- Barnacles - Ugly Casanova
Rick p- hahaha umm Fire Work - Katy Perry....where did that come from and where have you been all my life?  i said it cause it was the last song i heard on the radio i swear im not gay haha"
Caroll- Gone till Novemeber - wyclef
Nils- Your Touch - The Black Keys
Bj and Chad- Achilles Last Stand -led Zeppelin
Mike Dirt-  "Dig up her bones- The Misfits. Whats with the back from the dead call?"
- also "Une San Lumiere" - Arcade Fire
get ready: "for real" - Okkervil River,
 "Love Burns" - B.R.M.C
Take you on a cruise- Interpol
"love will tear us apart- Joy Division
"Torches Together" - MewithoutYou
"Twilight" - The Raveonettes
"Maps" - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"bloc party"- This Modern love
"remind me" - Royskopp
Meazy said - " Getting jiggy with it" - Will Smith , I just played it at the bar on the juxebox it gets everyone jumping.
Johnny p- Warmth - Incubus
Cinematic - Umm The Xx remix of "you've got the love"....why?
Brooklyn Steve- A violent yet beautiful world - Au Revoir Simone
Twang One- Can we still be friends - Todd Rundgren
Sevo- he was knocked out.
Natlie- Crazy - Areosmith
Lexi- first that comes to mind is, Say My Name - Destinys Child



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things-

I hate when I go to the pantry, to the refrigerator and then back to the pantry and act like something is going to better then the last time i was just there...

the music i start to clean my room with is always the total opposite at the ending time of room cleaned.

i think in words.

if your a passenger and i like you, i'll most likely play the baseline of the song on your legs.

i get happy legs when i'm happy.

my best friend and i have the most mind blowing conversations up and down 110.
i will most likely call you at random points, pick you up and make you ride for a drive...

i have absolutely no sense of direction and just shoot and pray for the best

i'm slightly in love with my Turkish gas station attendant.

which is odd because i always feel like a gas station murder would be so amazing and cant
believe is hasn't happened yet (?) that i kinda freak out because thats the thought i get EVERYTIME
at a gas station that i lock my doors keep the window open a crack and push in my car lighter.

i still hate the process of putting sheets on the bed.

as mush as i love words, i dont read as much as you'd think.

i have a hard time understanding how "LOL" and things like "Snooki' are real life things.

i answer my phone "HUH-LOW?!" many will think i'm pissed.

i don't know how to not whip my car around turns, it's almost impossible.

basic ma(+)h.

What are you going to do?






for ALL.

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is it...

"Thata boy" or "Atta boy"   [?]

tooday was not real.

old and new woken too-
p's and q's and fuck you's
ditched and scooped-
realizing someone taking intrest
and someone not intrested.
scrambled eggs and i'm not talking the breakfast food.

snowed in family divided by days
feversleeves trips to the movies
next online to realize the obnoxious not stoned
brats would be in the same room and we yelled
fuck it and left to hit off alarms and ask for something
good to happen and the radio says right from the start
PEOPLE ARE STRANGE WHEN YOU'RE---

i realized the best molecular  feeling is when you're  baggy sweats
fall down your calf when you are laying on you're stomach and playing
with someone elses christmas gift: THE SIMS who had a beard
and your tube socks are there to cover the cold winter's storm.

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fucking little things....they get on you.

and then i was thought of when someone saw this:

and i was honored.

to someone else thinking my "my taste for space" was like this:


and I misread it and thought it was my hip hop wanted so i said i'm more like........:



.....and whats wild is this is only one day.

too furs.

I decided I wanted something to eat so took myself into town. Inhancer Involved. haha.
For some reason I parked pretty far from my destination, which I normally do, do. But this time,
in my head I didn't want to park that far...just because i'm obsessed with my new Blue Ridge Mountain coat doesn't mean the cold wont get me...i need to stop. So i pulled into this lot and rolled up on some guy peeing on a dumpster. Fine. Just one of those, lookin' at me, lookin' at you type of things. We get them. I get out, take a walk to figure out what i want to eat. Sucker for the guac.  Mexican, i did it. On my way there a see "Chubby Hubby Undies" Specializing in SEXY undies for LARGE MEN sizes (1x - 6x) in COLORS AND PRINTS. (lknasgsdhghrueioghrqeungkjerqgvbiuqgtfoi43wj5) i had to check myself twice. Nope, you're right....it does say that. Huntington is a strange place on a Sunday.

When i got home i made a call to my friend Kat. Kat's at a pre family Christmas party or something...i call like a jerk aways. "What's up" with the tone of.....''what the shit now?" and thats when i realized i totally ALWAYS call her with the MOST FUCKED wildest and bizzarest stories and situations. ANd the fact i called her for something of the sort, knowingly she was at a family party reallllly makes me laugh. Then I thought more about it and realized....SHE, on the other hand totally throws these dodgers at me as well, and hers being on the more, thought out dilemmas, that really stress you to think. It's actually really funny. We pretty much are two peas in a pod.

zodiacally speaking-

i want your hectic energetic ways
- the combination of air and fire
i want you're new tricks, as i desire.
physical and intellectual level,
only to dissemble-
it's our fast pace with a quick of wit,
a favorable fit.
inventive and innovative
frustration and fulfillment
providing exhilarating excitement
Doubled down and keeping up-
good and evil,
male and female
Ruled by Mars,
bring me to my homeland, the moon.
Lets die with the sun.
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midnight am.

i'm sitting here ever so content with a play list of the following:

+ Phish
+ Band of Horses
+ The Shins
+ The Hollies
+ The Allmen Brothers
+ Thievery Corporation
+ The Delays

and there nothing more i want to be doing than just sitting here and listening.

beats beats beats!

i'm all up on Flying Lotus...that space feel!

electric blue dreams-

                     
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digital duo.

you have an internet personality.
Screen for a face- keys for hands, that don't open doors.
nothing but a space bar between us.
to turn me on is to turn you off.
i'm typing every message that you'll never receive.
re-seed.
return to sender.
with every letter, you see in between
Shift.
your battery life running low.
Enter again at a later date.
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w(h)ine for breakfast-

Brian was in redemption mode for another tale for another day...
Friday, we tried...i failed, he failed. Saturday, failed and failed.
Sunday morning at 11:00 "Goodbye horses" blarring all up in my sleeping ears
to an unknown number. Pick up the phone, Brian as my wake up call.
He had called with promising plans, but didn't share.
So with that as the theme, I headed to the other side of the island....in the Apocalypse.
Lately, i don't stand a chance with my Aries side- it speaks for me, and keeps making
me doing everything without a second to think. No complaints, it's super fun- others are the real issue.
So i drove and drove and drove and watched buildings turn into barns and front yards turn into acres
got kind of lost because it's natural. About a little over an hour I made it to Brain's.
He get's in and hits me with, "We are going to the winery out here!"
.....it was still technically morning. I haven't been drinking much lately and didn't even eat at all this
morning...but as an Aries i said "I am down for the cause!"
Brian had a friend working there.
At first we were joined by a man and maybe wife...tasting...chatting...looking classy.
They didn't say long. By then we had the place to ourselves.
With a play list of Band of horses and The Shins anndddd Neil Young and others
we drank our reds and whites. Stayed for quite a few hours, it was chill. The we went to Tom and Andy's house. Threw back some beers and I.......beat them in Mario Kart! That is my game, I will run your pockets for sure. Ok Tom was close, he did beat me once and always stoled Second....Brian is better at the music selecting. I think i'll keep him there. I still haven't eaten. Endless hours pass and we are still hanging, watching music videos, fucked up ones...again Brian is good for these. Singing, dancing, good times. It's well over 8 hours of Brian and I doing shit like this. We laughed at how long, it also seems to be our thing when we raley get together...actually every time we hangout its always a wild time from festivles to hangouts. It's cool.
We finally go to eat - The Eblow room. Brian is the worst co-pilot to sit in my passenger seat, but seat belt air guitar he makes up for it. Before I head back to my land, we pull off the road and sit by the Ticonic Bay...Brian is also good for random spots, he acts like he's not, but he is. Grizzlybear and the kills and she & him accompany us. With a little over a 10 hour hang out- I set home. It was a cool day.

Redemption made well. +

. Brian and everyone that's get riddin' in my car find my science goggles .

these always seem like a good idea-

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage: bluepoint blue beery beer.
2. last phone call: Mom.
3. last text message: chandra.
4. last song you listened to: i forget but i know Bone thugs came on.....
5. last time you cried: really don't know.
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = kinda sort of?
7. been cheated on = maybe.
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Nah.
9. lost someone special = yes.
10. been depressed = lindsay lohan's is jail...we're bored.
11. been drunk and threw up = 4loko is battery acid.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. forest green
13. Black
14. mustard yellow.


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend?: sure.
16. Fallen out of love?: clean itup.
17. Laughed until you cried? oh for sure.
18. Met someone who changed you?: i'll give you that.
19. Found out who your true friends were?: ok.
20. Found out someone was talking about you?: don't we all?
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list ?: oh come on.


GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life: surprising a lot, but that doesnt mean i'll keep ya!
24. Do you have any pets: i always used to say Andrew.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Legos and jim morrison books!
27. What time did you wake up today: double digits.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading with a candle!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: kat and i to finally follow through with our ideas haha
30. Last time you saw your Mother: few hours ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: the time to which i was born in.
32. What are you listening to right now: nothing. and thats super odd.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: peeping.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: right now i'm mellow as shit.
35. Most visited webpage: google.
37. Nicknames: petrone. roria. fee fee. and for the rog(d)ers: big titiouous.
38. Relationship Status: Single.
39. Zodiac Sign: aries.
40. He or She?: She
41. Elementary? like 5 too many to name.
42. Middle School? all partsof ny and ct.
43. High School? everyschool from ny to ct.
44. Hair Color? Original? red brown black in one.
45. Long or short? long!
46. Height? size nook.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? mike rowe dirty jobs.
48: What do you like about yourself? i laugh at my own laugh.
49. Piercings? done to one.
50. Tattoos? 4
51. Righty or lefty? Righty but barley.
52. First surgery = problem child.
53. First piercing = ears.
54. First best friend = daisy?
55. First sport you joined = the couch. never in my life did i play a sport.
58. First pair of trainers = if by that you mean bra, yeah i had to skip that trend.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating - Nothing.
60. Drinking - Nothing.
61. I'm about to – relax.
62. Listening to – noth.
63. Waiting for – the sun.
64. Want kids?- i'll cross that bridge when i get there.
65. Get Married? - again above.
66. Career? "high tech low life" - george carlin. rip.
WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = beards.
68. Hugs or kisses = remote.
69. Shorter or taller = thicker.
70. Older or Younger = the young is fucked.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = wild hair.
73. Sensitive or loud = mental.
74. Hook-up or relationship = borrowed.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = house broken.
HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = one and only mission.
77. Drank hard liquor = cought.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = my glasses are always lost so they are never worn.
79. Sex on first date = no mam'.
80. Broken someone's heart = perhaps.
81. Had your own heart broken =  i;m sure.
83. Turned someone down = eek.
84. Cried when someone died = i did.
85. Fallen for a friend = thats a different business that im stockin in.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = on good hair days.
87. Miracles = change purse.
88. Love at first sight = i'll give you two guess's first one doesnt count.
89. Heaven = in my burrito.
90. Santa Claus = sannnnn deeee claws?!
91. Kiss on the first date= You'll have to work.
92. Angels = LSD.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf at once? the fact thats a real statement is so sad. come on world.
94. Is there one person you want to be with right now? i haven't gotten one.
95. Did you sing today? yes!
96. Ever cheated on somebody? Not my scene.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? i dont know actaully.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? i dont remember last year.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? thats a huge thing.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? no.

train of thought-

Yesterday I had this huge, out of body experience when I literally saw the world outside of it's self for a spilt second. Enough to latch on to ONE of the many things that flashed before my eyes. I can't really explain it- because it's a day later.  All I can say was the way i normally think, or would have thought was changed. And everything that was spoken about within the same day, week, moment and what not...all came together. Like a true mad woman, i ran to my room and got my red journal. A book of the most RANDOM of words, phrases and doodles. I get these moments a lot but this.....was profound. It began from the bowl of NOOR food. (middle eastern foods) I had gotten it the night before. A collection of meats: Spicy chicken and lamb covered in a white sauce, over rice and a salad. It was bomb. With too much to eat, i saved it and brought it home. The next day was lunch time and i figured i'd eat it. "We don't waste in the country" is a phrase FOREVER implanted in my brain from my dad. But back on track....so i go to eat this meal and it's just not going well as it did the other night. I start to panic because it's NOW that i am having this huge revelation in my kitchen. I just remember hating how this food tasted and how the texture of it, really bothered me. Which then brought me back to as of lately i've been having this hard time eating meats. And let me just first state, I LOVE a fat juicy stake, medium rare to rare. But as of 4 months ago, some meals have been giving me a panic attack. I've never had this before, stupid i'm aware. If i begin to feel the texture, and/or think about the meat itself...I bug out. To the point, i love lobster but 3 years back I remember clear as day my mom making lobster for Christmas dinner and when she placed it on my plate I began to...basically disetc it like a science project and it just bugged me out....full blown panic attack at the table. and since then, i haven't eaten it. Even a scene from a David Lynch movie called "Earserhead" popped into my head. In this fucked up of a movie, cooked baby chicken is being served for dinner, but it still moves and bleeds and gets eaten....BUT TO GET BACK TO THE MAIN FOCUS....so it's been really bothering me. Now, rewind back into this crazy revelation and further before that day.....Takes you well, me back to my vacation where i met this older lady and her daughter. Her daughter a vegetarian. The mother...well here's her story. I randomly found myself talking to this lady and her daughter... the mother asked me how i liked the food on the ship...spoke my piece, not even knowing what i really did think just rambled to end it. I somehow reversed the question and thats when it it home. She had began to tell me how it was hard. Hard for her daughter and hard for her to eat. Being it was in fact Thanksgiving and her daughter was a vegetarian, got it....hard. She, on the other hand shared a story that was wild. She was one day baking cookies with her daughter, when it was time to eat them, she had spit the cookie back into a napkin. She had thought her daughter went a little too crazy with the sugar/salt. Not the case. What had really happened is some freak thing. She had completely lost all the sense in her taste buds. Also gained the act of acid reflex. I felt really guilty, in the sense of how I was almost subconsciously selfish in what i ate. Which made me think of meats and animals. She shared that if she were too eat certain things, she would be sick for weeks. She pressed on how it's awful and now can't enjoy some of her most favorites of foods. It hit home for me, but only in the moment. Now, we channel back into my kitchen...with that story weighing down my mind, the unannounced meat attacks, and the idea of generally being more healthy which has too been a reoccurring thing...I realized maybe it's my time to give up meat. Sure, a little bit goes out for the 'animal sake' but i have got to be honest, i'm not one of those. Too many little moments that made me check myself finally added up. I do overall want to become more healthy. I ended up throwing away the food, and breaking dad's rules. (ha) I spent the rest of day meat free. I hope I can carry this out. By no means am i an overnight vegetarian, I think if I void out such...it will get me to the image i have in my head. Which is another train of thought but wayyyyyy to detailed to even visit again. But this is what happens, i carry this out until the next big the to have all my focus. Stay tuned.

What i'm working on:
+ Eating better
+ Daily Meditation
+ Use of candles
( by the way, claps for me. Lastnight i regained the use of being able to have an open flame in my room.
It was taken away when i lit the side of our house on fire, and also when my towel on my head went up in flames.)
+ Reading and FINISHING one book at a time.
+ Studying images daily so they reflect my life.

(marsh)mellow-out mondays.

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"SALSA SALSA, YOU IN?!"

Today was one of my days off, so I spent my day out in Port Jeff.
I'm really having a hard time giving into the colder days, I desperately don't want the winter to come.
I've been packing all my last minute 'warm weather activites' in like a mother.
Chandra lives out in the Port Jeff area and has been begging for some adventures and to take me
under the "Salsa Salsa wing." And you don't know?! Salsa Salsa is what i can officially say a bomb ass Mexican food joint! Almost everyday Chandra get's her fix, sometimes even two times a day and then comes to work and boasts about just how good. "Petrone, theres a WALL OF GUAC in the burrito!" Those were the defining moments that made me know, I need to try it. Over the summer Jaime had just recently moved me onto "Ay Caramba" Mexican food down in Long Beach - that was a banging jump off and out beat my Moe's Mexican Grill fix...by the way i'm a chunkina if you haven't caught on by the first 5 sentences of this post. So with Moe's beat, and Ay Caramba in the lead with best burrito, it was now time to check out Salsa Salsa. Chandra has ALWAYS done well by me with her tastes in food, and she's a vegetarian and still knows how to hook her porker friend up! So, I made the call, she without a doubt was down for the cause and with a freshly rolled joint we giggled our once empty tummies down for good eats! On another level of, "fucking supreme" was what I replied after sinking my teeth in...Chandra in her glory. The lady behind the counter requested I try the 'homemade sauce' and fuck, you got me....spices and guacamole and i am there! So amazing. So we ate, sat in the window, people watched and rolled out the door. Stuffed to the max, we walked it off and strolled the town of Port Jeff. I got myself these super fun earrings. It was a good day. :)

. new fun new fun! .

love and

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Nature is a language can't you read?

Sunday was my only day off from Halloween hell at my job. What better way to spend the day hiking with my girrrrrrrrl?! Kat and I got egg sandwich's, and green teas from Starbucks and headed to New Jersey Palisades Overlook. It was a perfect day to visit this spot we've been trying to get to for a few months now. My camera died half way through so below are pictures that i took. Kat has the rest. I learned that Kat is afraid of heights and i am the epidemy of an Aries.Kat needs to think of everything and every move before she makes up her mind. Me on the other hand, as an Aries, WE JUST DO IT! Good and bad. I literally climbed over the barricades to take pictures at the end of the cliff that rose soo high that if you were to fall it would be an instant death. I had to talk Kat into joining me right up to the very edge - it was a high for me...Literally. Over time she did. We are rule breaks for the rush, experience and photos. The grounds were pretty decent for the location. The overlooked viewed parts of the Hudson River and Westchester NY.

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Tuesday Morning-

Today was really funny; to me at least. I woke up from a weird ass dream, something about me singing somewhere. But I woke up from that and instantly was like "what the fuck." Then I was instantly mad because I wasn't ready to get up, and for some reason my brother was home. Who than began to ring the front door in a gross exaggeration of 20 times. So now i'm forced to wake up and open the door and begin my day. So it began. In my stone washed jeans, combat boots, V neck, fannel vest, hair parted in the middle and uncombed...and no plan I headed to Manhassest for GOD KNOWS WHY! From there I went to the "Americana  Mall" and for those who don't know, it's an outdoorsy UP THE FUCK SCALE a ray of stores. Here's a taste for your thirsty self: Parda, Micheal Kors, Channel, Osar De La Renta and so forth. As i'm walking around laughing to myself at the type of people here and working here, i'm thinking how much of the fucking Twilight Zone this place truly is. Now I'm walking and walking acting like i know just what the fuck i'm doing here (even know i haven't the slightest clue) when all of a sudden - on the fancy path i was on - a 5 star legit lunch/dinner setting is taking place....with 3 chiefs in there white crisp lab like coats and serving these luxurious locals. What do I do...after taking in what the fuck is actually going on 5 steps ahead of me.....? I WALK THROUGH THE FINE WINE AND DINE THAT IS CURRENTLY GOING ON! Heads arose from their $500 sirloin steaks. Looking back, 'the correct and normal' thing would have been to walk around onto the 'driving/walking' area rather than disturbing the meal. These people must have gotten just as good as a laugh as i did. Just from my outfit. I found myself hysterically laughing to the point i sent a text message to Brandon because I needed to share my laughter with someone. Now that that was enough to make me get the fuck up out of there, I got into my car and lit up a once smoke joint, that was well needed after that bizarre encounter. So now my plan was....Ok let's go to the most complete end of where i am that is the most out of the way for a day with nothing planned. I go to Northport, why? again I have not a clue. Northport is a fake town to me. 2 years or so ago i used to be there a lot, i associate it with dumber days. So I sometimes have a love/hate for Northport. And shut up, "Northpo" is so lame. Don't be caught saying that, suckers. Now I'm in the town of Northport with no plan - so i decided to park my car and walk around. Got coffee and shopped, minus the fact i'm semi broke. I walk into a store and like the impulsive Aries that i am - I HAVE TO buy this iron flowered cork screw stopper thing for my mom. It jumped up at me and made me think of my Mother earth of a mom so i got her it. Not something I normally do but apparently i get stoned and buy people things.....see, us stoners never do anybody wrong! I'm rambling, I'm aware. So i purchase my item but can't keep focus because the little cute store i was in was so homey and decorated so great to the point i had to say something. I began talking to the owner who later tells me how her husband was the master mind behind his empire. I totally dug his story. I thought for sure it would be the other way around judging by just how nicely and well thought out it truly was. I'd say it was a pleasant zinger on their part! I told them how it inspired me and how i liked being apart of their own little world, just by purchasing a gift. I think thats part of why I got Mother Earth something. I liked knowing they were an independent good hearted people making a honest living that I enjoyed giving my money towards what they do. Even if i'm broke as shit right now - ha. My mood is very content, relaxed, with a 'home' like feeling running through me. Very simple day, for a openly-closed mind. Now eat shit and die. hahahaha I re read this before i posted it and it made me think how 'up beat' it sounded that when i literally got to the end i said "now eat shit and die" that i had to add. Oh, brain you are so weird. FIN.

Hearing what I draw.

".Unzip my body Take my heart out Cause I need a beat to give this tune."

- a drawing i did way back. I still remember my thought process to this drawing i had when it was birthed.

I was listening to  Roisin Murphy's song called "Ramalama (bang bang)."

I took in the choice of insruments she used, her voice, the rythem, lyrics and tried how to figure what how i could draw the song. This drawing of her face was what I heard. 

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